Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Brick and Mortar

it is true.
and it is official.
i am in the process of opening my own studio and shop.
near my home.
and close to my kids' schools.
it's kinda a big deal.
(doing a bit of demolition to an old dressing room)

i now own a business.
(demo half done.  almost.)

and i have a j.o.b.
(second dressing room.  gone.  now putting up wall to make last one into fabric storage)

i am terrified and giddy, all at once.
(starting to move in)

i'm in the eye of a storm: the cleaning, moving, organizing, preparing, website building, logo designing, bank account opening, sign securing, lease signing, etc.  i know this is the grinding work of getting to opening day and that it wont continue to be this intense and daunting 24/7. 
and i am trying to enjoy a bit of it as i go.
(sooooo much to do!)

after the first whole day of moving and cleaning i sat in a comfy chair, in the almost dark, twilight, quiet shop, by myself, and cracked a cold beer(there was no Sophia on hand, Erin and Natasha!), and sat back and thought:
i think this will be ok.
i think i can handle the emotional roller coaster.
i think i can handle how vulnerable this makes me feel.
i think i can manage to let go a bit, just a bit, of the perfectionism and control-freakness that binds me up.
i think it's alright that, in this moment, i can switch from deep deep gratitude, peaceful serenity and utter enoughness, to big wet salty tears, deep doubt and unworthiness and stone cold fear.
i think all this means i am alive.
and i do believe it's a privilege to get to feel it all.  all of it. hard and easy. light and heavy.  rough and smooth.

(lots to sort, sift, dust, organize and display)

ohmygawd!  I FINALLY have MY OWN studio and shop!!!

you people out there who know me:  how long have i been talking about the "eventual shop," my "one day store, my "someday studio"?  like....   forever!

it's happening.

a dream is coming true one day at a time in little ol' Duvall, WA.

well, exactly at 15922 Main St!

items are arriving, car load by car load.

i hope you'll come visit and see what's new down here!

it's amazing what you can do with a little rope, some bungee cords and an open sun roof!

i am trying to open by july 2 and i hope to be open
thursday-saturday noon-6 and sunday 12:30-5.

wish me luck friends!  and don't be shy about stopping by!

12:41 AM.   must. go. to. bed. :)


  1. I love it! You are truly amazing and can't wait to see all that you've done!

  2. Wow, that is so amazing! That is my dream come true as well! I am so excited for you, and just from looking at your photos, I can see that you're going to be tremendously successful! If I lived in Washington I would totally come by, but I'm on the East Coast. :( Please keep updating though, because I think it is so cool what you are doing! One day I hope to have a little shop in Baltimore, and the more time that passes, the more I just wish I would be brave enough to go ahead and do it. So, you are my new role model. :)

    Congratulations on this wonderful accomplishment! You should be really proud!


  3. Just checking in on you because our time together the other night was much too short. This is my favorite post of yours so far. Why? Because there is so much of YOU poured out on paper. And, I think you are brilliant in realizing that all these feelings are exactly what makes us alive...I always remember that quote about, 'on your deathbed, you will regret the things you were too afraid to try' or this version which is also beautiful:
    'To dare is to lose one's footing momentarily. To not dare is to lose oneself.' ~Soren Kierkegaard


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